I'm hoping that not only am I going into a new season in terms of weather, but also into a new season of my life. Lately I feel like my entire life is one big lesson in patience. Every way I turn, I feel like God is telling me "just wait." I feel like I'm in a waiting room with a whole bunch of doors I want to go through, but God keeps telling me it's just not time yet.
I'm waiting for a lot of things.
1. We put our house up for sale this summer. So I'm waiting (not so patiently) for it to sell so we can build the beautiful home we've been planning for months. But it's not time yet, and I'm guessing, like all things...there must be a reason. Patience.
2. I'm waiting to see what my career has in store for me. I know my entire career can't be rolled out in front of me right away, but it would be sort of nice to know where I'm headed. A job with more stable hours (no weekends, evenings or holidays) would be a dream come true...but it's not time for that yet either. Patience.
3. The biggest thing I've had to muster up patience about is my recent diagnosis of Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) (google it if you want more info). I kept telling my doctor I had PCOS, but it took him a few months to actually get a clue and realize I was right. It's since been confirmed, and I've begun a lifelong journey of trying to stay healthy by exercising and eating right in order to keep myself from "having a heart attack at 40" as my endocrinologist so delicately put it :) (The good news is, if I do keep myself healthy, that probably won't happen.) Aside from my increased risk of heart disease, diabetes, high blood pressure, etc., the diagnosis also means that I struggle with infertility. Again...Patience.
I often wonder how much more difficult this whole patience thing would be if I didn't know for sure that God has a plan. He knows what he's doing, and exactly why and how long I have to wait for all of these situations to become clear. So, Fall is a new season in my life. And if it doesn't bring the answers I want, hopefully it will bring more lessons on the importance of patience and the comfort of faith.
